|I would LOVE to have a writing desk like this!|
Unfortunately, I don't do very much writing nowadays, not even in this blog to write about the Pagan things going on in my life. This is one of those areas where I severely lack discipline and I, truthfully, psyche myself out too much. It's a bad habit that I need to cut out. Actually, I have a LOT of bad habits that I need to knock off.
1: The biggest one is how wastefully I often spend my time. I do too many things that are worthless distractions. I play too many Facebook games. The fact that I've cut down doesn't matter. My time still get swallowed in by Candy Crush Saga. Hell, if they allowed more lives than just 5, I'd have a bigger struggle. The fact that I allow myself to get drawn in by such time-wasters is something that has massively gotten in my way as a writer but it has also caused me a lot of hurt as a college student.
2: I don't spend enough time practicing. I've got writing textbooks still from my English Composition class and my Creative Writing class that I'd started the Spring Semester of last year that I'd ended up having to drop. There are SO MANY things I could use from those books in regards to writing exercises, writing prompts, etc. I've been told by many that I'm a good writer, but I know that there are A LOT of areas that I need to improve in order to be not just a GOOD writer, but a MARKETABLE writer.
3: I need to find something to write about every day, even if it's just a blurb. I'm not talking some stupid status on Facebook or Twitter. At one point, I used to write every day quite faithfully in my LiveJournal. That's a habit that I pretty much drastically dropped out of back in 2006 after some REALLY bad things began happening in my life. I just didn't have the energy to write anymore. Before then, I was writing poems fairly regularly. I was involved on a poetry site called TheStarliteCafe and I was taking part in poetry writing challenges quite frequently. But when things started going to complete and dire shite in 2006, my passion
and zest pretty much died. If I were Greek, I guess you could say I'd lost my kefi.
I want so much get that fire and passion back, but I feel so lost more often than not. You ever feel like you're in a coma and you don't know how to wake up? It's like that. I WANT to write. I've got one story that I've had in the works for the past 2 years. I WANT to finish it. I WANT to actually be able to say that I've finished the writing of a novel I've started. And I WANT to be able to market it to publishing hopefuls.
And, really, I know I can do it. I just have to DO it. I have to stop psyching myself out. I have to stop giving in to all the internal reasons I have as to why I can't, because even I know that they're bullshit.
OMG I want so badly to have that amazing ALIVE feeling one gets when they have a story swimming around in their head that just will NOT shut up until it gets written! Hell, when I first had the idea for my Dragon story, I had goosebumps! I'm not even kidding! If I can write it well enough, it just might be a story I can sell and have it be successful!
So, here's what I want to do:
|Sylvia Plath -- My most favorite poetess|
1: Limit myself to ONE HOUR of Facebook every day. One hour AT MOST, and that includes any games.
2: Learn to re-direct myself to more constructive pursuits (be it writing or homework or whatever else) when I feel the itch to just be a lazy person and spend my time on stupid, needless sites.
3: I want to start doing writing exercises. Until I push myself into better habits, perhaps it's too much to say I want to do one writing exercise per day, but I won't know til I give it a try.
Wish me luck!
)O( Morgaine )O(