I hope all the mommies who read my page had a wonderful Mother's Day! Whether you are the mommy to a human child, a furbaby, a plant even, or are like a mother to someone!
My Mother's Day has been the best I've had in years! For one thing, it's my first Mother's Day as a happily divorced woman! :-D For another, today was a beautiful day, so I took my kiddos to the park and OMG they needed it! LoL I had to get onto them a few times because for a little while, they were THE LOUDEST and most obnoxious kids on the playground! XD But it was a good outing and it was fun watching them get to play with other kiddos and enjoy being out of the house. Right now, they are chowing down on Velveeta Shells 'N Cheese for dinner to be followed up with by some Sun Chips and an apple for dessert. ^_^ Yep, life is good.
On the writing front, I am pleased to report that between last night and this morning, I've managed to write two poems. ^_^ I know, it doesn't sound like much, but still, it's something. It's more than the empty screen I was staring at for the longest time that was taunting me with the mental image of it collecting dust.
I hesitate to post them here or anywhere lest that mean that I can't submit them anywhere for publication, but if anyone reading this wouldn't mind acting as a beta reader for me, that would be awesome! I am eager to get some opinions on these. :-D Just leave me a comment here or send me a message on the Facebook page and I will send them to you.
ZOMG Treehouses!!!!! *spaz*
Saturday, May 11, 2013
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| My dream treehouse |
Being that I have kids, the idea of living in a treehouse is not exactly practical by any stretch, but you know what I would LOOOOOOOOVE to have someday? I would love to have a tree-cabin for my writing studio! :-D A place where I can go and be in the trees and have my own space to settle in and let nature inspire me to write. *le sigh* That would be the total awesomesauce! Some place like this would be perfect:
Ohmigods, I love this treehouse so much! :-D It's so beautiful!
I have no doubts that my love of treehouses comes from my being an Elf. From what I understand, many races of Elves lived up in the trees like this. Hell, even the Elves in "The Lord of the Rings" books and movies lived up in the trees, particularly the Lorien Elves. ^_^ Granted, obviously, I'm not a Tolkien Elf, but I loved the designs of the flets in the LOTR movies! They were so beautiful!
Maybe someday I'll get to have my treehouse writing studio. At this point in my life, it's not terribly likely, but it is a lovely thing to dream about. Every person who loves to create in some form or fashion dreams of having that environment that will catalyze their creativity and make the inspiration wash over them like a waterfall that has been un-dammed. And I think I just discovered what my dream environment is. ^_^
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| How cool is this treehouse?!?! |
Writerly Thoughts: Feeling VERY Twitchy!!
First of all: Yay!! I managed to change the header picture!!! :-D Easy for most people, but it took me a bit to figure it out >^.^< So yeah, I'm feeling a bit geeky happy. I am LOVING my new layout!! Elf-girl is happy!!
In other news.....
I've been feeling twitchy for days. Twitchy of the writing persuasion, and I'm glad for it, but it's a twitchiness I've not been able to quench. I have been BADLY wanting to make some writerly accomplishments, but I still feel stuck! I don't know what to write! Please forgive the crassness of this comparison, but it's like being constipated. Aaaaaaaaand that's as far as I'm taking that analogy. Y'all can figure the rest out, I'm sure. Perhaps a better analogy might have been the pressure that builds when you've got a kink in a water hose. I don't know o.O
It's like my head is full of white noise and hesitation. I don't know where to begin. Trying to break my writing inertia is like trying to get a steam engine going. Breaking through that barrier of inertia is the biggest problem for me (as I'm sure it is for many people). Once I actually get going, it's not quite so difficult. But the GETTING GOING is just.......gah! D:
I haven't gotten to any writing exercises yet (fairly obvious). With the last two weeks of the Spring Semester to deal with, I wasn't overly expecting to. But now that it's pretty much over with the exception of one more thing for my Paralegal class (as I've already mentioned), my free time is going to be a lot more free for me. Yes, I'll have work to contend with, but when I'm home, the only duty I really need to worry about keeping up with is contributing to the upkeep of the apartment.
I'm still working on culling down my time on Facebook. I fully admit that I've still been spending too much time on there, but I haven't really touched any of the games in at least a week whereabouts.
I have one more assignment to complete, which is due on Monday. I really need to get to that (it's a Legal Research assignment, which I am NOT looking forward to!) but I need to have that done. Either before I do it or after, I want to try to complete a writing exercise. I feel like if I don't do some sort of creative writing SOON, I'm going to go to pieces. I'm glad I feel that way, but I want to find a way to take advantage of it lest that desire go slack with me nothing to show for it.
If anyone reading this knows of any other places to suggest that have good writing exercises, I would very much appreciate the heads up! :-D
)O( Morgaine )O(
In other news.....
It's like my head is full of white noise and hesitation. I don't know where to begin. Trying to break my writing inertia is like trying to get a steam engine going. Breaking through that barrier of inertia is the biggest problem for me (as I'm sure it is for many people). Once I actually get going, it's not quite so difficult. But the GETTING GOING is just.......gah! D:
I haven't gotten to any writing exercises yet (fairly obvious). With the last two weeks of the Spring Semester to deal with, I wasn't overly expecting to. But now that it's pretty much over with the exception of one more thing for my Paralegal class (as I've already mentioned), my free time is going to be a lot more free for me. Yes, I'll have work to contend with, but when I'm home, the only duty I really need to worry about keeping up with is contributing to the upkeep of the apartment.
I'm still working on culling down my time on Facebook. I fully admit that I've still been spending too much time on there, but I haven't really touched any of the games in at least a week whereabouts.
I have one more assignment to complete, which is due on Monday. I really need to get to that (it's a Legal Research assignment, which I am NOT looking forward to!) but I need to have that done. Either before I do it or after, I want to try to complete a writing exercise. I feel like if I don't do some sort of creative writing SOON, I'm going to go to pieces. I'm glad I feel that way, but I want to find a way to take advantage of it lest that desire go slack with me nothing to show for it.
If anyone reading this knows of any other places to suggest that have good writing exercises, I would very much appreciate the heads up! :-D
)O( Morgaine )O(
After Almost 5 VERY Long Years.....
Friday, May 10, 2013
If you follow my Facebook page, you might have already heard my big news for the day: Earlier today, almost 12 hours ago and after almost 5 years of waiting, I FINALLY was able to get my divorce!!! I seriously cannot even convey what a huge relief that is for me! So many times prior I had tried to get this thing going only to be shot down for one reason or another.
When I was living in Oklahoma, I'd tried several times to get the Legal Aid to help me, but they wouldn't. Why? Because they were only helping abuse cases, particularly cases of physical abuse and because pretty much the only thing my ex-husband DIDN'T do was beat the hell out of me, I was shit out of luck. Didn't even matter that I was afraid of my ex somehow finding me. Didn't even matter the fact that my ex is a flaming sociopath. >.< Yeah, makes no sense for me either. But none of that matters anymore, because my divorce hearing was earlier today and everything went well!
As anticipated, my ex wasn't there. I don't know where he is (which is fine by me), so he wasn't able to be served in person; we had to go the Service by Publication route, which was doubly fine by me. My ex isn't one of those who reads the paper much less the legal announcements. ^_^
Druid was there with me, thank Goddess. He didn't want to chance even the remote possibility of my ex showing up and thus my having to deal with him on my own. We were there almost two hours and, barring the fact that I fidgeted nervously until it was my turn for the lawyer to talk to me, it was a very easy process.
And when it was all over, I have no doubts I looked something like the gal in this picture!
I am so relieved to have that gods-awful chapter of my life FINALLY closed!
To celebrate, I decided to re-vamp the look of this blog. Today is the first day of my new life and I wanted my blog to somehow reflect that look. It took FOREVER, but I was finally able to find a blog template that I like and voila!
In other news, I am pretty much FINALLY done with the Spring Semester (with the exception of one more Paralegal class to turn in my Take-Home Final that I have to do) and then I am off for the Summer! :-D Thank Goddess!! I am NOT happy how the Spring Semester ended up for me. >.< I'd started it so well, but when I got massively knocked on my ass by the bronchitis for over a month, it seriously screwed things up for me. I went from having my overall grade in the high 90's to sweating over whether or not I was even still passing. But, I'm pretty sure I passed well enough and I'm damn determined that the Fall Semester go MUCH better than the Spring semester did! :-D
When I was living in Oklahoma, I'd tried several times to get the Legal Aid to help me, but they wouldn't. Why? Because they were only helping abuse cases, particularly cases of physical abuse and because pretty much the only thing my ex-husband DIDN'T do was beat the hell out of me, I was shit out of luck. Didn't even matter that I was afraid of my ex somehow finding me. Didn't even matter the fact that my ex is a flaming sociopath. >.< Yeah, makes no sense for me either. But none of that matters anymore, because my divorce hearing was earlier today and everything went well!
As anticipated, my ex wasn't there. I don't know where he is (which is fine by me), so he wasn't able to be served in person; we had to go the Service by Publication route, which was doubly fine by me. My ex isn't one of those who reads the paper much less the legal announcements. ^_^
Druid was there with me, thank Goddess. He didn't want to chance even the remote possibility of my ex showing up and thus my having to deal with him on my own. We were there almost two hours and, barring the fact that I fidgeted nervously until it was my turn for the lawyer to talk to me, it was a very easy process.
I am so relieved to have that gods-awful chapter of my life FINALLY closed!
To celebrate, I decided to re-vamp the look of this blog. Today is the first day of my new life and I wanted my blog to somehow reflect that look. It took FOREVER, but I was finally able to find a blog template that I like and voila!
In other news, I am pretty much FINALLY done with the Spring Semester (with the exception of one more Paralegal class to turn in my Take-Home Final that I have to do) and then I am off for the Summer! :-D Thank Goddess!! I am NOT happy how the Spring Semester ended up for me. >.< I'd started it so well, but when I got massively knocked on my ass by the bronchitis for over a month, it seriously screwed things up for me. I went from having my overall grade in the high 90's to sweating over whether or not I was even still passing. But, I'm pretty sure I passed well enough and I'm damn determined that the Fall Semester go MUCH better than the Spring semester did! :-D
Writerly Thoughts
Friday, May 03, 2013
One of my life's passions has always been writing. One of my long-time dreams is to be a published writer -- be it my poems or my stories (provided I ever actually FINISH one!! -_-) and have people actually LIKE what I write. One of the reasons I created this blog was to have it be my Writing blog, not just my Pagan blog.
Unfortunately, I don't do very much writing nowadays, not even in this blog to write about the Pagan things going on in my life. This is one of those areas where I severely lack discipline and I, truthfully, psyche myself out too much. It's a bad habit that I need to cut out. Actually, I have a LOT of bad habits that I need to knock off.
1: The biggest one is how wastefully I often spend my time. I do too many things that are worthless distractions. I play too many Facebook games. The fact that I've cut down doesn't matter. My time still get swallowed in by Candy Crush Saga. Hell, if they allowed more lives than just 5, I'd have a bigger struggle. The fact that I allow myself to get drawn in by such time-wasters is something that has massively gotten in my way as a writer but it has also caused me a lot of hurt as a college student.
2: I don't spend enough time practicing. I've got writing textbooks still from my English Composition class and my Creative Writing class that I'd started the Spring Semester of last year that I'd ended up having to drop. There are SO MANY things I could use from those books in regards to writing exercises, writing prompts, etc. I've been told by many that I'm a good writer, but I know that there are A LOT of areas that I need to improve in order to be not just a GOOD writer, but a MARKETABLE writer.
3: I need to find something to write about every day, even if it's just a blurb. I'm not talking some stupid status on Facebook or Twitter. At one point, I used to write every day quite faithfully in my LiveJournal. That's a habit that I pretty much drastically dropped out of back in 2006 after some REALLY bad things began happening in my life. I just didn't have the energy to write anymore. Before then, I was writing poems fairly regularly. I was involved on a poetry site called TheStarliteCafe and I was taking part in poetry writing challenges quite frequently. But when things started going to complete and dire shite in 2006, my passion
and zest pretty much died. If I were Greek, I guess you could say I'd lost my kefi.
I want so much get that fire and passion back, but I feel so lost more often than not. You ever feel like you're in a coma and you don't know how to wake up? It's like that. I WANT to write. I've got one story that I've had in the works for the past 2 years. I WANT to finish it. I WANT to actually be able to say that I've finished the writing of a novel I've started. And I WANT to be able to market it to publishing hopefuls.
And, really, I know I can do it. I just have to DO it. I have to stop psyching myself out. I have to stop giving in to all the internal reasons I have as to why I can't, because even I know that they're bullshit.
OMG I want so badly to have that amazing ALIVE feeling one gets when they have a story swimming around in their head that just will NOT shut up until it gets written! Hell, when I first had the idea for my Dragon story, I had goosebumps! I'm not even kidding! If I can write it well enough, it just might be a story I can sell and have it be successful!
So, here's what I want to do:
1: Limit myself to ONE HOUR of Facebook every day. One hour AT MOST, and that includes any games.
2: Learn to re-direct myself to more constructive pursuits (be it writing or homework or whatever else) when I feel the itch to just be a lazy person and spend my time on stupid, needless sites.
3: I want to start doing writing exercises. Until I push myself into better habits, perhaps it's too much to say I want to do one writing exercise per day, but I won't know til I give it a try.
Wish me luck!
)O( Morgaine )O(
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| I would LOVE to have a writing desk like this! |
Unfortunately, I don't do very much writing nowadays, not even in this blog to write about the Pagan things going on in my life. This is one of those areas where I severely lack discipline and I, truthfully, psyche myself out too much. It's a bad habit that I need to cut out. Actually, I have a LOT of bad habits that I need to knock off.
1: The biggest one is how wastefully I often spend my time. I do too many things that are worthless distractions. I play too many Facebook games. The fact that I've cut down doesn't matter. My time still get swallowed in by Candy Crush Saga. Hell, if they allowed more lives than just 5, I'd have a bigger struggle. The fact that I allow myself to get drawn in by such time-wasters is something that has massively gotten in my way as a writer but it has also caused me a lot of hurt as a college student.
2: I don't spend enough time practicing. I've got writing textbooks still from my English Composition class and my Creative Writing class that I'd started the Spring Semester of last year that I'd ended up having to drop. There are SO MANY things I could use from those books in regards to writing exercises, writing prompts, etc. I've been told by many that I'm a good writer, but I know that there are A LOT of areas that I need to improve in order to be not just a GOOD writer, but a MARKETABLE writer.
3: I need to find something to write about every day, even if it's just a blurb. I'm not talking some stupid status on Facebook or Twitter. At one point, I used to write every day quite faithfully in my LiveJournal. That's a habit that I pretty much drastically dropped out of back in 2006 after some REALLY bad things began happening in my life. I just didn't have the energy to write anymore. Before then, I was writing poems fairly regularly. I was involved on a poetry site called TheStarliteCafe and I was taking part in poetry writing challenges quite frequently. But when things started going to complete and dire shite in 2006, my passion
and zest pretty much died. If I were Greek, I guess you could say I'd lost my kefi.I want so much get that fire and passion back, but I feel so lost more often than not. You ever feel like you're in a coma and you don't know how to wake up? It's like that. I WANT to write. I've got one story that I've had in the works for the past 2 years. I WANT to finish it. I WANT to actually be able to say that I've finished the writing of a novel I've started. And I WANT to be able to market it to publishing hopefuls.
And, really, I know I can do it. I just have to DO it. I have to stop psyching myself out. I have to stop giving in to all the internal reasons I have as to why I can't, because even I know that they're bullshit.
OMG I want so badly to have that amazing ALIVE feeling one gets when they have a story swimming around in their head that just will NOT shut up until it gets written! Hell, when I first had the idea for my Dragon story, I had goosebumps! I'm not even kidding! If I can write it well enough, it just might be a story I can sell and have it be successful!
So, here's what I want to do:
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| Sylvia Plath -- My most favorite poetess |
1: Limit myself to ONE HOUR of Facebook every day. One hour AT MOST, and that includes any games.
2: Learn to re-direct myself to more constructive pursuits (be it writing or homework or whatever else) when I feel the itch to just be a lazy person and spend my time on stupid, needless sites.
3: I want to start doing writing exercises. Until I push myself into better habits, perhaps it's too much to say I want to do one writing exercise per day, but I won't know til I give it a try.
Wish me luck!
)O( Morgaine )O(
Strength to Be Admired, Not Mocked
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
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Sometimes you have to take steps back before you can go forward
Sunday, April 14, 2013
Alllllllllllllllrighty. It's been close to a month since I last made a post. >.< I'm at the point where I have no idea where to start to try to tell about everything that's gone on. Hell, I've got a draft post that I still need to finish to tell what's been going on with my Year and a Day class. Yet, that one's been stuck in my Drafts folder for how long? Psh! Almost a month!
Things have been crazier than usual. One of the biggest things I've been dealing with is being sick. I caught the crud from my kiddoes and it has been kicking my butt all over the place. I finally went to be seen at the ER last night because I wanted to be sure it wasn't turning into something serious (my biggest worry was pneumonia). Thankfully, I just have a respiratory infection which the Z-pack I was prescribed should have it taken care of in no time. ^_^
The other big thing (aside from trying to get caught up on schoolwork) is that Druid and I have, basically, broken up for the time being. We have had a lot of residual things, resentments, building up against each other. We had a huge blow-out about a week & 1/2 ago (give or take) and, once we finally started talking constructively together, Druid suggested that we just live as friends/roommates for the time being and to try to work our issues out that way -- try to rebuild a friendship between us and work our problems out under that much more relaxed atmosphere since we just didn't seem to know how to work out our problems as a couple.
*sigh* Sooooooooooo, yeah. I think Druid's idea was a good one. I think it will do us a lot of good to take this step back and to just chill, but there are things even then that make my heart ache. But I'm not going to get into all that on here. Not yet, anyway.
I've missed a couple Year and a Day classes because of being sick and there's not going to be any class tomorrow (thank gods) because Greyhart's got something else going on. I say "thank gods" because that'll give me some more time to recoup before the next class so that I shouldn't be a coughing fit mess like I was at the last class I attended.
I have been LOVING the classes! It's been a long time since I've written anything about them and I'm sorry for that, but they have been awesome! Greyhart is a kickass teacher who doesn't shy away at pushing us to break through our comfort zones. At the last class I attended, we were still playing around with energy and what not (casting circle and what not). I had comfort zone issues with being put on the spot (no shocker there). It wasn't so bad when I was just casting a regular circle. In fact, I got compliments on the last one I cast, which thrilled the hell out of me! My first one was quite weak because I wasn't drawing in from the energy around me and, instead, was just trying to use my personal power, which was meager at best because of being sick. My second one was better, but my last one was a lot more like what it should be.
However, he also showed us how to make circles that would move with us and that is where I pretty much blithered out from being so self-conscious. The circle I cast was good, but then I pretty much shut down after that. Greyhart, though, was very patient and didn't let me off the spot until I got over myself enough to relax and follow his instructions. I hope that I'll be in much better shape when the next class comes around.
All, in all, that's a little nutshell of all that's been going on. Any prayers and positive energy that y'all would be willing to send for Druid and I in hopes that we'll be able to patch things up to a more healthy level would be much appreciated!
)O( Morgaine )O(
Things have been crazier than usual. One of the biggest things I've been dealing with is being sick. I caught the crud from my kiddoes and it has been kicking my butt all over the place. I finally went to be seen at the ER last night because I wanted to be sure it wasn't turning into something serious (my biggest worry was pneumonia). Thankfully, I just have a respiratory infection which the Z-pack I was prescribed should have it taken care of in no time. ^_^
The other big thing (aside from trying to get caught up on schoolwork) is that Druid and I have, basically, broken up for the time being. We have had a lot of residual things, resentments, building up against each other. We had a huge blow-out about a week & 1/2 ago (give or take) and, once we finally started talking constructively together, Druid suggested that we just live as friends/roommates for the time being and to try to work our issues out that way -- try to rebuild a friendship between us and work our problems out under that much more relaxed atmosphere since we just didn't seem to know how to work out our problems as a couple.
*sigh* Sooooooooooo, yeah. I think Druid's idea was a good one. I think it will do us a lot of good to take this step back and to just chill, but there are things even then that make my heart ache. But I'm not going to get into all that on here. Not yet, anyway.
I've missed a couple Year and a Day classes because of being sick and there's not going to be any class tomorrow (thank gods) because Greyhart's got something else going on. I say "thank gods" because that'll give me some more time to recoup before the next class so that I shouldn't be a coughing fit mess like I was at the last class I attended.
I have been LOVING the classes! It's been a long time since I've written anything about them and I'm sorry for that, but they have been awesome! Greyhart is a kickass teacher who doesn't shy away at pushing us to break through our comfort zones. At the last class I attended, we were still playing around with energy and what not (casting circle and what not). I had comfort zone issues with being put on the spot (no shocker there). It wasn't so bad when I was just casting a regular circle. In fact, I got compliments on the last one I cast, which thrilled the hell out of me! My first one was quite weak because I wasn't drawing in from the energy around me and, instead, was just trying to use my personal power, which was meager at best because of being sick. My second one was better, but my last one was a lot more like what it should be.
However, he also showed us how to make circles that would move with us and that is where I pretty much blithered out from being so self-conscious. The circle I cast was good, but then I pretty much shut down after that. Greyhart, though, was very patient and didn't let me off the spot until I got over myself enough to relax and follow his instructions. I hope that I'll be in much better shape when the next class comes around.
All, in all, that's a little nutshell of all that's been going on. Any prayers and positive energy that y'all would be willing to send for Druid and I in hopes that we'll be able to patch things up to a more healthy level would be much appreciated!
)O( Morgaine )O(
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